I'm sitting here in the house alone. Hailey is still sleeping and the other two are outside with hubby doing something. It's all peaceful with the exception of Jessica's radio playing.
I don't know what is wrong with me. I have gotten to where I hate hearing a radio play. Well any music for that matter. I take spells where I wanna listen to some old school stuff from the 80's, but nothing else.
The whole bunch gets mad at me. It wouldn't do for us to own one of those satellite radios things because I would never use it. I turn the radio off in the truck whenever I get in. I just don't like hearing it.
The girls on the other hand could listen to music 24/7. I guess at one time I was like that. As I age, I would rather hear the birds than the radio. Now I fully understand why my parents were so aggravated with me.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
In search of peace and tranquility
Some times I question my own sanity. We have decided to home school all three of the girls this coming year. Ask me how I'm doing in 6 months and I'll probably respond from the nearest mental hospital.
So far the summer has been active. Normally this time of the year, we just sit here. Already a little over 2 weeks into the vacation and so much has been going on. The first week we attended two funerals. Both of my sister in laws brothers died. Then last week, all three of the girls thought it would be fun to have Strep throat all at once. Today I have my two year old nephew as my niece had another blowout on the highway.
I'm just ready to kick back and chill out. I want to be on a outdoor chaise lounges under the shade tree, sipping tea and reading a book.
I want for all my trouble to melt away with my sweat. It's not asking for too much is it? To find peace and tranquility this summer.
So far the summer has been active. Normally this time of the year, we just sit here. Already a little over 2 weeks into the vacation and so much has been going on. The first week we attended two funerals. Both of my sister in laws brothers died. Then last week, all three of the girls thought it would be fun to have Strep throat all at once. Today I have my two year old nephew as my niece had another blowout on the highway.
I'm just ready to kick back and chill out. I want to be on a outdoor chaise lounges under the shade tree, sipping tea and reading a book.
I want for all my trouble to melt away with my sweat. It's not asking for too much is it? To find peace and tranquility this summer.
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
So this is summer
Boy oh boy has this summer vacation started out with a bang. Last week we attended two funerals. I babysat kids (all under 2 years old) all last week. I threw my back out again. And it hasn't even been two weeks since the last day of school. And it just seems to me that it's not going to slow down any time soon.
Today I will have Kade again. He's so sweet though and well behaved. I also need to take Stephanie back to the dermatologist for a check up on her feet. Then sometime I need to make Jessica an appointment with the Gyno to be put on birth control. She will be 15 at the end of this year and I think that it's the right time.
I have explained to her that the birth control isn't giving her permission to sleep with anyone. It's just a precautionary measure. I do not want to become a grandmother at the tender age of 33. But one of the concerns I have is the weight gain associated with Birth Control. Jess has always been a little bigger. I don't want her to gain a ton of weight then have to be put on something like atro phex. I guess we will just monitor it and get in more daily exercise to help combat that downfall of the pills.
In addition to everything that is happening, we have decided to homeschool all three of the girls. I think I'm off my rocker, but I also think it's for the best. Hailey will be getting started a little earlier than the other two. She's going to do an hour a day and start practicing her multiplication and cursive handwriting. Wish me luck. I'm going to need it.
Today I will have Kade again. He's so sweet though and well behaved. I also need to take Stephanie back to the dermatologist for a check up on her feet. Then sometime I need to make Jessica an appointment with the Gyno to be put on birth control. She will be 15 at the end of this year and I think that it's the right time.
I have explained to her that the birth control isn't giving her permission to sleep with anyone. It's just a precautionary measure. I do not want to become a grandmother at the tender age of 33. But one of the concerns I have is the weight gain associated with Birth Control. Jess has always been a little bigger. I don't want her to gain a ton of weight then have to be put on something like atro phex. I guess we will just monitor it and get in more daily exercise to help combat that downfall of the pills.
In addition to everything that is happening, we have decided to homeschool all three of the girls. I think I'm off my rocker, but I also think it's for the best. Hailey will be getting started a little earlier than the other two. She's going to do an hour a day and start practicing her multiplication and cursive handwriting. Wish me luck. I'm going to need it.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Did I fail?
Oh me, day two of summer break and I'm already ready for August to get here. I swear I have heard I'm bored and there's nothing to do about 25 times today. What has happened to kids using their imaginations to get through the summer months. Back when I was my girls age, I would outside wandering around and exploring.
Nowadays, the kids are more interested in computers, cell phones and the best remedy of how to get rid of blackheads. They are vain and self centered. My oldest daughter will spend 2 hrs a day on her hair alone. She will wash it, straighten it and pull it up. This happens almost every day. I told her she doesn't have to do all that just to stay home. It's insane.
But that's the difference in the generations. I don't think my generation was so vain or so into themselves. We were made to go outside from the time we got up until way past dark. Saying I'm bored was a no no. If an adult heard us say that, they found something for us to do.
But I feel that it's my fault. I raised the girls. I thought that I was trying to do better by them and not having them experience life like I did. Maybe that was a mistake on my part. Maybe I caved to the pressures of being a perfect parent in this time and age. Maybe I didn't allow them enough independence to form their imaginations. Who knows. I do know that I have tried and maybe I failed, but if I did, so did millions of other parents who are in the same boat I am in.
Nowadays, the kids are more interested in computers, cell phones and the best remedy of how to get rid of blackheads. They are vain and self centered. My oldest daughter will spend 2 hrs a day on her hair alone. She will wash it, straighten it and pull it up. This happens almost every day. I told her she doesn't have to do all that just to stay home. It's insane.
But that's the difference in the generations. I don't think my generation was so vain or so into themselves. We were made to go outside from the time we got up until way past dark. Saying I'm bored was a no no. If an adult heard us say that, they found something for us to do.
But I feel that it's my fault. I raised the girls. I thought that I was trying to do better by them and not having them experience life like I did. Maybe that was a mistake on my part. Maybe I caved to the pressures of being a perfect parent in this time and age. Maybe I didn't allow them enough independence to form their imaginations. Who knows. I do know that I have tried and maybe I failed, but if I did, so did millions of other parents who are in the same boat I am in.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
School's Out For Summer
It's official. School's out. Oh lord have mercy. I heard I'm bored before 8 AM. Jessica had the TV turn on CMT this morning around 7 AM and that drove me insane. I think that's mostly because hubby and I do not turn the TV on during the day. We relish every single second of our peace and quiet. This is going to be a long summer vacation.
Hailey had school until 10:30 AM. How crazy. So Jessica and I decided to go to the school around 9:30 to help the school get their stuff packed up and to pick up Hailey's EPI pen and Benadryl. I asked if we could go down and help her teacher and I got a very stern and swift NO. Well fine then, pack the shit up yourself. See if I offer to help again.
I have to say though, I'm honestly ready for summer. I'm ready to sleep late. No alarm clocks. No snacks for school. But I'm not ready to hear I'm bored one million times. By the time August gets here, I'm sure I will be more than ready for school to start back up. Oh and Hailey made all A's this 9 weeks. Woo hoo, that's my girl!!
Hailey had school until 10:30 AM. How crazy. So Jessica and I decided to go to the school around 9:30 to help the school get their stuff packed up and to pick up Hailey's EPI pen and Benadryl. I asked if we could go down and help her teacher and I got a very stern and swift NO. Well fine then, pack the shit up yourself. See if I offer to help again.
I have to say though, I'm honestly ready for summer. I'm ready to sleep late. No alarm clocks. No snacks for school. But I'm not ready to hear I'm bored one million times. By the time August gets here, I'm sure I will be more than ready for school to start back up. Oh and Hailey made all A's this 9 weeks. Woo hoo, that's my girl!!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
She done it!!
Today my daughter made me so proud of her. She passed her science exam. She passed it with a 71. No it's not perfect but nonetheless I couldn't be more proud of her. I told her so and that if she sets her mind to it, she can do anything. I think today was a testament to how if she applied herself more, she could see more positive results.
Well that and threatening her with homeschooling next year if she failed it. Hahaha, hey if it works you gotta go with it.
She took her time, she was the last one finished. We made her study last night forever. I have told her over and over how proud I am of her.
School is officially over for two of the three. Hailey has to go tomorrow until 10:30. I think the girls and I are going to go to the school and see if we can help out for a bit with packing up the classroom and I'm going to see if I can coax the teacher into handing over her report card early so we can split. I'm so ready for it to end. I say that but in a weeks time I will be ready for it to start up again.
Before I know it, August 6th will be here and I'll be griping about the price of school. We are still on the fence about homeschooling. I'd like to do it but then again, I don't wanna do it. Mostly for selfish reasons. And high school was the best time of my life, I don't want Jessica to miss out on it. I guess we shall see how well she fairs in high school first. But then again, I may change my mind and just bite the bullet and do it. You can never tell about me.
Well that and threatening her with homeschooling next year if she failed it. Hahaha, hey if it works you gotta go with it.
She took her time, she was the last one finished. We made her study last night forever. I have told her over and over how proud I am of her.
School is officially over for two of the three. Hailey has to go tomorrow until 10:30. I think the girls and I are going to go to the school and see if we can help out for a bit with packing up the classroom and I'm going to see if I can coax the teacher into handing over her report card early so we can split. I'm so ready for it to end. I say that but in a weeks time I will be ready for it to start up again.
Before I know it, August 6th will be here and I'll be griping about the price of school. We are still on the fence about homeschooling. I'd like to do it but then again, I don't wanna do it. Mostly for selfish reasons. And high school was the best time of my life, I don't want Jessica to miss out on it. I guess we shall see how well she fairs in high school first. But then again, I may change my mind and just bite the bullet and do it. You can never tell about me.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Driving me crazy
I love her. I really do. But I swear Jessica is going to be the death of me. I don't know what else to do. I'm tired of crying and worrying myself to death. Raising teens is the hardest job.
Hubby and I have always had a very strict school grade rule. Anything under a 75 warrants being grounded. That child of mine has been grounded pretty much since the 5th grade. I have talked to the teachers. I have talked to the counselor. I have talked to the vice principal and I am at the end of my own rope.
She's failing. I looked through her grades tonight and most of her failure is due to her own ignorance. What I mean by that is, she's not completing classwork and accepting zeros. Next year she enters high school. Her credits for graduation starts. I swear I'm so afraid she will not graduate or she will fail and be in the same grade with her younger sister.
If she doesn't get her ducks in a row, she will be buying industrial equipment supplies instead of school supplies. She's given up and doesn't care what her grades her. What gets me is, Jessica is so freakin' smart.
We have came to the conclusion that she doesn't want to show how smart she is. She's hanging out with the bad asses of the grade and wants to fit in. She's too worried about every Tom, Dick and Harry to pay attention.
I feel like I have failed my daughter. But she will be 15 in December and needs to learn to be responsible for her own actions. She needs to realize that not everyone will or can bail her out when she wants it. Someone please tell me this will get easier and she will open her eyes before it's too late. Or am I only dreaming?
Hubby and I have always had a very strict school grade rule. Anything under a 75 warrants being grounded. That child of mine has been grounded pretty much since the 5th grade. I have talked to the teachers. I have talked to the counselor. I have talked to the vice principal and I am at the end of my own rope.
She's failing. I looked through her grades tonight and most of her failure is due to her own ignorance. What I mean by that is, she's not completing classwork and accepting zeros. Next year she enters high school. Her credits for graduation starts. I swear I'm so afraid she will not graduate or she will fail and be in the same grade with her younger sister.
If she doesn't get her ducks in a row, she will be buying industrial equipment supplies instead of school supplies. She's given up and doesn't care what her grades her. What gets me is, Jessica is so freakin' smart.
We have came to the conclusion that she doesn't want to show how smart she is. She's hanging out with the bad asses of the grade and wants to fit in. She's too worried about every Tom, Dick and Harry to pay attention.
I feel like I have failed my daughter. But she will be 15 in December and needs to learn to be responsible for her own actions. She needs to realize that not everyone will or can bail her out when she wants it. Someone please tell me this will get easier and she will open her eyes before it's too late. Or am I only dreaming?
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Fun, sun and the end
The end is near. End of school year that is. It seems as though every one of the girls has a different thing planned for each day. Yesterday Hailey had fun day and today is her reading fun day. Jess and Stephanie both had awards day this morning (which I did NOT attend, due to the fact they didn't get squat).
Tomorrow is Stephanie's last day of school. She kept her grades up, behaved and didn't miss but three days of school all year so she's exempt from all her exams. Jess on the other hand didn't fair so well and has to take all of her exams. I hate to say it, but it serves her right for slacking. Hailey's last day is next Thursday. Her awards day is Tuesday and I am attending that one. She's been on A-B honor roll all year long.
Yesterday was her fun day. We got there late because she told me the wrong time. She still had a blast. We had so much fun watching the kids have a good time. Here's a photo I took of her doing the balloon launch. Hubby says it looks like she's in stirrups at the Gyno's office.
I have been debating on homeschooling next year. A big part of me wants to do it. But a big part of me doesn't for selfish reasons. During the day is the only time it's ever quiet here. It's the only time the girls aren't fighting, complaining or crawling under my skin. We have been debating heavily on this for a while, but just can't come to a decision.
Tomorrow is Stephanie's last day of school. She kept her grades up, behaved and didn't miss but three days of school all year so she's exempt from all her exams. Jess on the other hand didn't fair so well and has to take all of her exams. I hate to say it, but it serves her right for slacking. Hailey's last day is next Thursday. Her awards day is Tuesday and I am attending that one. She's been on A-B honor roll all year long.
Yesterday was her fun day. We got there late because she told me the wrong time. She still had a blast. We had so much fun watching the kids have a good time. Here's a photo I took of her doing the balloon launch. Hubby says it looks like she's in stirrups at the Gyno's office.
I have been debating on homeschooling next year. A big part of me wants to do it. But a big part of me doesn't for selfish reasons. During the day is the only time it's ever quiet here. It's the only time the girls aren't fighting, complaining or crawling under my skin. We have been debating heavily on this for a while, but just can't come to a decision.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Bumpy Roads Ahead
I love them. I really do. But sometimes I can't stand them. I just don't get it. The attitudes, the rolling of the eyes, the smart mouths. I give them everything yet they still treat me with such disregard and disrespect.
Yesterday I lost it. Stephanie was asked twice all day to do the dishes from the night before. Not a big deal. She comes off with this attitude about me nagging her all day. WTH? Twice in one day is nagging.
Jessica gets mad at me when I tell her no she can't go somewhere or do something. They expect me to explain myself. I shouldn't have to explain my reasons behind something. UGH.
I'm frustrated. Is it wrong of me to ask them to do chores? I was raised to work for what you want. I have tried to instill that in my girls. That things just aren't handed to you whenever you want them. You have to do some type of work for it.
I'm hoping that one day they will appreciate what I have tried to teach them. Right now, the world is unfair and I make them slave drive for trips to the store or clothes. I know they get mad at me, but I hope in the end it all works out and they see I am only trying to teach them a life lesson. Until they realize it, it's going to be one bumpy road.
Yesterday I lost it. Stephanie was asked twice all day to do the dishes from the night before. Not a big deal. She comes off with this attitude about me nagging her all day. WTH? Twice in one day is nagging.
Jessica gets mad at me when I tell her no she can't go somewhere or do something. They expect me to explain myself. I shouldn't have to explain my reasons behind something. UGH.
I'm frustrated. Is it wrong of me to ask them to do chores? I was raised to work for what you want. I have tried to instill that in my girls. That things just aren't handed to you whenever you want them. You have to do some type of work for it.
I'm hoping that one day they will appreciate what I have tried to teach them. Right now, the world is unfair and I make them slave drive for trips to the store or clothes. I know they get mad at me, but I hope in the end it all works out and they see I am only trying to teach them a life lesson. Until they realize it, it's going to be one bumpy road.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Making time stand still
Today I let Hailey stay home. There is a huge festival and she didn't want to go. But she's also sick. She has this nasty crud that my family is sharing with one another. I have threatened their lives if I get it. There's nothing worse than being sick.
It's hard to believe that the end of school is nearing. Stephanie had to take three of her text books back today to turn in. That's the reality of it all and says summer is right around the corner.
Jessica is all set for High school now. I'm torn. I want her to go to high school and have a great time. But the mother in me remembers what high school was like and is dreading it. All the drama and stuff that goes on. I'm so not ready for it.
I'm all for my girls growing up and experiencing life. But the mother inside of me wants to shield them and protect them. I know it's not possible to put them in a bubble and keep them there forever. It's just hard to stand back sometimes and watch them spread their wings. I just want them to stay the way they are. Forever.
It's hard to believe that the end of school is nearing. Stephanie had to take three of her text books back today to turn in. That's the reality of it all and says summer is right around the corner.
Jessica is all set for High school now. I'm torn. I want her to go to high school and have a great time. But the mother in me remembers what high school was like and is dreading it. All the drama and stuff that goes on. I'm so not ready for it.
I'm all for my girls growing up and experiencing life. But the mother inside of me wants to shield them and protect them. I know it's not possible to put them in a bubble and keep them there forever. It's just hard to stand back sometimes and watch them spread their wings. I just want them to stay the way they are. Forever.
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